Ne, i'm feeling guilty. We've all been teasing Maryam non-stop about *deep breath* cute-boy-who-sits-in-front-of-Rahmah-during-physics-classes-at-SIS.

Well, i hope we're not confusing her or anything, it's just harmless fun really. Crushes, i think, are really innocent, sweet things really. So admire on, but obviously, we can't really do anything much about it. There are limitations after all, restrictions.

But then, if all you want to do is to admire, if you feel contented with just that, then all these limitations don't pose much of problem now do they?

I wonder, we have been brought up to believe in religion, to abide by the rules and regulations of religion, of God. It's easy if these rules don't really interfere with our lives, but the moment they do, the moment the presence of lines we cannot cross becomes apparant, we question their authenticity.

It's almost as though our belief lasts as long as it doesn't remain an inconvenience. Of course, whenever we feel the urge to oppose and to rebel, we say the devil is tempting us, we must not give in. To succumb is the ultimate crime, proof of our weakness.

I don't really think that way. I mean, as far as i'm concerned, religion has never been a problem, it's always the solution. My belief and faith gives me solace in times of doubt and uncertainty.

But it's not impossible someone out there feels that way. Haiz. It's sad really.
Haha, how did it get to this? One moment i'm thinking of Maryam and boy-with-long-nickname, the next, it's this.

Haha. Let's derail my train of thoughts, and move on to something else.

You know, it's so hard to keep my feet on the ground. Without realising it, i've reverted back to my old habit of drifting into ' dream mode ' aka, that dream-like state of mind i enter whenever i want to write or something. Blah, i sound like a madman. Delusional. Heh

Shahid got grey coloured contacts. Pretty cool actually. Haha, it's more natural that it would seem, and yeah. I think, if he'd picked blue, green or even brown, the fact that it's not natural would be more apparant.

Hmm... I'm listening to beautiful music . . . * sighs contentedly *
Nye, i have a problem. Both Maryam and Amal wants to watch their movies on the same day. Blah. Won't worry about it, will see what happens. If anything, Maryam and i DID make plans first, and i promised Amal nothing, i told her see first, so yeah, will see first you know.

In the mean time, Death Note! Nyahaz, so cool. I showed Shahid the trailer earlier, he said it was pretty okay. He'd thought it was some sort of ghost story in the beginning, so upon relising that it wasn't, it lost some of it's appeal, but when i told him the plotline and everything, he became enthusiastic once again.

See, this is why i like talking to Shahid. At least about things like this, we both can appericiate about the same kind of things. I can never talk about this with Dee and have her complete attention. Same goes for other people really.

But then, i can't expect them to understand fully or anything, i think it's good enough they bother to listen and fake interest, haha. It's the same for me really, there are simply somethings that i can take interest in, and other that bore me. Such is the human mind, such is life ^_^

Anyway, i'd better stop here, heh. I could say i want to go do something else ( which is true ), but the real deal is that my arm is getting tired. That's right, the upper part of the arm, not the fingers or even the hand. Haha, the oddity of it all really. Nyehe

Right, so, Ja ne~